Exist Loudly

You Can Have the Rest of Everything I Own

I’ve been radio silent since I wrapped up my Aussie World Tour in December and I’d like to say it’s because I’ve been so busy or too lazy, but I can’t use either excuse. My life here in Australia 2016 has been amazing and it’s not that I don’t want to share them, I don’t necessarily want to share with the entire interweb. I feel that if I do, I might cheapen the experience and the moments I have and am having, but for those that need to know what I’ve been doing since January, I’ll give you a little glimpse into my life.

I’m currently living in Bellevue Hill with an amazing family that inspires, motivates, and makes me laugh every day. Their vibrational energy and universal positivity fills a spot in my soul with Universal love and laughter. I am honored and blessed to have this trifecta of humans in my life. Their impact on me will be felt for years to come.

I joined the dating world. If you know me, I know you’re like WTF? Hell, I was like WTF? Yet, here I am, in the dating world. It’s a strange world to navigate. I’ve been happily single for so long that inviting people into my life has been down right bizarre at times. How do you break the ice online or in a dating app? Do I want something serious? Do I want something casual? Do I want a hook up? Do I want to go to the movies, dinner, drinks, coffee, tea, running and the questions go on and on. To be honest, I have no fucking clue what I want. I probably never will. I equate knowing what I want in dating to knowing what I want to be when I grow up…I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up so therefore, I have no idea what I want in dating. There are positives to this new adventure: I have met some pretty awesome people and I have gotten a shit ton of crazy conversations and inspiration that I’ve started a novel inspired by some of the cray crays whose paths I’ve crossed.

I’m writing. I might even say, I’m writing again. I have made time and taken time and made the effort to write. Not that I didn’t throw myself into my writing before, it’s just got a newer focus. A renewed focus. Maybe it’s the abundant amount of vitamin D my spirit receives each day (that means I see the sun shining a lot for those that are like huh?) that fuels me. I don’t know but the need to write outweighs the need to breathe sometimes and I haven’t felt that way in a long while.

I’m running. Still hate it. Still like the zen peace from it.

I miss my dog terribly. I miss that excitement he had to see me when I came home. He’s doing well on the road with my dad. Enjoying bacon and everything bad for him. He’s probably gained 5lbs.

Exploring Sydney and NSW on two feet and a train has been wonderful. Pick a train stop and see what happens. Walk here and see what you discover. It’s also great exercise. I think I’ve lost a couple inches to all the miles/km I walk.

I still don’t have a visa that will let me legally work and live. I haven’t given up. I know it will come along. I know it’s in my cards. I will either find that job that sponsors me or get that visa that will allow me to be here legally. If Trump becomes president, I’m going into hiding in the outback. Look for me next to the dead kangaroo carcass and termite mound dressed as the grim reaper.

That’s it so far…I still am loving Australia and nothing could change that. I still want to be here. I still know in my heart of hearts this is where I belong. I know the Universe will help me stay here and live here and work here legally. For every doubt I have or had, it’s shown me something beautiful and amazing and reassured me, this is where I belong.

And like Jimmy Buffett sang…“I have found me a home. You can have the rest of everything I own…”