HEY HONEY, YESTERDAY WASN’T A GOOD DAY FOR ME. EVERYTHING I DONE, TOUCHED, THOUGHT WAS ABOUT YOU. IT STARTED ABOUT 7PM. I WAS LISTENING TO MY IPOD WHEN LORIE MORGAN, PICTURE OF ME WITHOUT YOU STARTED AND I STARTED. I WAS CRYING SO HARD I HAD TO PULL OVER BECAUSE I COULDN’T SEE THE ROAD. BEAR KNEW SOMETHING WASN’T RIGHT. SHE WAS TRYING TO CLEAN MY FACE TOO! I JUST HAD TO SIT THERE UNTIL I COULD SEE. THE NIGHT BEFORE YOU CAME TO ME WHILE I WAS ASLEEP VAND SAID YOU HAD SOMEONE THAT WANTED TO TALK TO ME. I COULD SEE TOMMY, GRANDMA, CAROLYN, DEAN AND JEAN BEHIND YOU. I ASKED IF I COULD HOLD YOU AND YOU SAID NO. BUT I REACHED FOR YOU ANYWAY AND YOU WERE GONE. ALL I WANTED WAS TO HOLD YOU ONE MORE TIME. THEY SAY THAT IT GETS EASIER AS TIME GOES BY, THATS CRAP. IT SEEMS TO BE GETTING HARDER.  I THINK GOD IS PUNISHING ME FOR BEING AWAY FROM YOU SO MUCH. EVEN WITH ALL MY MISSIONS WHILE IN SERVICES, YOU NEVER KNEW SAID A THING. YOU NEVER KNEW WHERE I WAS GOING OR WHEN I’D BE BACK. YOU NEVER KNEW YOU WERE BEING WATCHED AFTER WHILE I WAS GONE BY AGENTS OF THE USAF BECAUSE OF MY MISSIONS. THATS WHY I NEVER WORRIED ABOUT YOU AND THE GIRLS.  NOW I HAVE TO SUFFER THE FEELINGS YOU MUST OF HAD. AND IT STINKS. I KNOW I’LL SEE YOU SOON BUT I HOPE I LIVE TO BE 100. I WANT TO SEE YOU NOW BUT I DON’T WANT TO LEAVE THIS WORLD YET. I HAVE BEAUTIFUL GIRLS AND 2 BEAUTIFUL GRAND DAUGHTERS I WANT TO SEE GROW UP. SO DON’T PLAN ON ME BEING THERE TOO SOON.
Love,
~Ricky