Nothing like a crash & burn to start a new beginning…
Last night, my computer crashed or just died when the battery kicked the bucket. With that death, it took 3 years worth of blogs. THREE YEARS! I tried to salvage it but in the middle of searching the Apple website on why iWeb crashed, I decided to let go.
Breathe in…breathe out…move on.
I’ve been doing a lot of that in the last 9 months. I’ve also been doing a lot of letting go.
When the blog section crashed, there was so much I wanted to save. The entry I wrote when my mom went into the hospital. The one I wrote about her death. The one I wrote about facing the fact that she wasn’t coming back and coming to terms with her death. There was blog I wrote to my oldest niece on being strong and a leader and the one I wrote to my father. There was the infamous DC-Dim Widdy Virginia Road Trip that the crew so fondly called The Adventures of the Blower’s Daughter. I wanted to save them all. They were my memories I wanted to leave for the future.
Consider this a LIFE LESSONED LEARNED. Back up everything and back up your back ups. So instead of just plugging away on a blog, I will now back this up in my journal. Safe than sorry right? I should have realized that when I broke my last external hard drive. I lost everything. But I also learned to let go of that, “FUCK, WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!” feeling.
So this new beginning…this new blogging…this new life…it all starts today. It did start today. It started with this blog entry. It started with me giving running a try. I did horribly. I walked most of my “run,” but instead of feeling all whoa-is-me, I’m happy. I might not have ran but I got off my ass and exercised.
So here’s to new beginnings, letting go of the past, and looking towards the future with a smile!
Listening to “Picture to Burn” by Taylor Swift
(Very apropos considering…)
