No Pen Required, An Honest Conversation (Mostly with Myself)

I’ve been working on this post for a while. How long is a while? In a writer’s world, too fucking long is how long but it’s been about 1000 days in the making. Huge exaggeration there, but this post has been sitting in my drafts for the last few months or so. The words haven’t flowed easily and my mind has had shiny quarter syndrome while writing it (that means it’s been distracted by all the things it wants to add into the post). I kind of feel that this is a hot mess of a post, so buckle up, keep your hands and feet inside, and enjoy the ride because this is my 4 AM conversation that I’m going to share even if no one is listening. You’re probably thinking, “WTF? 4 AM conversation?!?”

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Shelia TaylorJune 11, 2016

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Songs of My Life: May 2016

Mentally, I was all over the goddamn place for May. Most of it was in a good headspace but damn the days where it was a bad headspace. I’m good at recognizing patterns my brain takes and signs of where it’s going to fuck with me so I can luckily do a preemptive strike on most of those bad headspace days but the days I couldn’t stop it from happening seemed like what the fuck moments times a billion. I survive though. Mostly through sheer will and my sidekick, music. Some of those bad headspace days, you just crawl into your bed, pull the blankets over your head and go to bed the moment your day ends and some days you share those bad headspace days with someone and their simple words of understanding help more than they know. Continue reading “Songs of My Life: May 2016”

Shelia TaylorMay 29, 2016

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Within

And the thoughts… They invade like locusts on a warm summer night Stopping me in my tracks Surrendering me to my knees Hopeless Confused Struggling for answers Advice from friends Guidance from strangers The answer within Not knowing where to look Just look Look inside But where My heart? My head? My soul? The answer within Nothing within Stillness Quiet Alone No answer within Within … Continue reading Within

Shelia TaylorApril 13, 2016

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The Year of Living Dangerously

Before anyone reads that and thinks I’m going to run out carrying a shotgun and a sword, I’m gonna need you to slow your roll. If I did run around carrying one or both of those, I’d probably shoot myself and trip and stab myself. Now that bit of information is out of the way, the year of living dangerously just means living out of … Continue reading The Year of Living Dangerously

Shelia TaylorApril 2, 2016

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You Can Have the Rest of Everything I Own

I’ve been radio silent since I wrapped up my Aussie World Tour in December and I’d like to say it’s because I’ve been so busy or too lazy, but I can’t use either excuse. My life here in Australia 2016 has been amazing and it’s not that I don’t want to share them, I don’t necessarily want to share with the entire interweb. I feel that … Continue reading You Can Have the Rest of Everything I Own

Shelia TaylorMarch 9, 2016

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Songs of My Life: January 2016

There’s so much I can say about the first month of 2016. It’s been pretty amazing. The Universe has gifted me things in unexpected packages and I am grateful I had enough sense and hutzpah to see opportunities and take them because it has taken me down roads I would have never taken without a nudge or a sign of do this you dolt! I … Continue reading Songs of My Life: January 2016

Shelia TaylorJanuary 29, 2016

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Songs of My Life: December 2015

Better late than never! Here are the songs for December 2015. I didn’t have internet or cell service for most of December and I’m not even mad about it. I started this posted a few days ago, but finally have respectable wifi/internet to post it today. I hope everyone had a great NYE and that 2016 is filled with Universal light love and magic for … Continue reading Songs of My Life: December 2015

Shelia TaylorJanuary 1, 2016

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#01: “A Pirate Looks at Forty”

SONG: “A Pirate Looks at Forty” ARTIST: Jimmy Buffett I wasn’t even alive when the album, A1A was released in 1974 but that didn’t stop me from finding this song. I was 13 or 14 years old and my friend Sarah played Jimmy Buffett’s SONGS YOU KNOW BY HEART for me. That was the moment I became a Parrothead. When I first heard “A Pirate … Continue reading #01: “A Pirate Looks at Forty”

Shelia TaylorNovember 16, 2015

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#02: “Big Western Sky”

SONG: “Big Western Sky” ARTIST: Kik Tracee Going back to the “Music is My God My Best Friend” post again…I wrote: I also read a post from my friend Rob entitled “Hope is Everything” this week. I was so moved by his post. He wrote of suicide and I sat thinking about how his former band’s song “Big Western Sky” was my song of hope. It was a constant … Continue reading #02: “Big Western Sky”

Shelia TaylorNovember 15, 2015

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#03: “Drownin'”

SONG: “Drownin’” ARTIST: Sponge In a February 5, 2012 post titled “Music is My God My Best Friend”, I wrote In 1994, Rotting Piñata from Sponge was released and it had the radio hits “Molly (16 Candles)” and “Plowed” on there but that album was so much more than those songs. That album saved my life. That band’s music saved me from some of the darkest … Continue reading #03: “Drownin’”

Shelia TaylorNovember 14, 2015