In no particular order, here’s a list of things I’ve learned while exploring & exposing myself… As Ville Vallo of HIM says in a brilliant quote, “Music is my ‘God,’ my best friend.” Without music, I am sure I would not have survived being on this earth for so long. Music has also given me some of the best friendships I could ever ask for. … Continue reading Things I’ve Learned
“We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be.” ~ May Sarton I was completely moved by that quote when I first read it and since I have been spending September exposing and exploring myself, it stuck with me.It ties perfectly into what I wanted to write about today: morals. So many definitions, so many variations. Which … Continue reading Dare to Be
I have learned and discovered that there is pretty much a sexual fetish for anything and everything. It is completely fascinating that some people are turned on by balloons. Yep, balloons. I don’t get it, but someone out there is turned on sexually by balloons. To each his/her own. When most people think fetish, their head immediately goes to whip, chains, latex, leather, but that … Continue reading Let’s Get Weird
I’m pretty sure my mom went to her grave thinking I am still a virgin and Dad, I’m not a virgin anymore (sorry). I haven’t been since I was 21. I’m glad I waited until I was 21. I at least had some wits about me vs being a naive teen. It’s taken me a long time to realize that I am comfortable in my … Continue reading Don’t Slut-Shame Me for Being Comfortable in My Skin
an overwhelming sadness thoughts of letting go letting go of this earthly bond letting go of this love an ache in my heart each beat tears it apart should have never liked you from the start no tears will fall i let go of it all on hands and knees i crawl not broken not bruised not alone not used so alive and so free lessons … Continue reading right to flee
pleasure in pain pain in pleasure love in lust lust in love a freeing touch a binding kiss a shackle of desire a sting of ecstasy tools of sex lies of love freedom from guilt no judgement no shame two who long for each other a spoken word a gagging of emotions a whip of honesty a chain of feelings tools of love lies of … Continue reading tools and lies
Pushing the glass door open, I smiled at the elderly security guard and walked to where he sat. “I’m here for a meeting with Gray,” I said before he could ask what my business was and filled out the paper on the clipboard. “I figured. He mentioned he had a meeting with someone,” he said, glancing at the clipboard. “You know where you’re going Lillian?” … Continue reading A Late Night Visit
To me, being single isn’t the end of the world. I have sole possession of the remote control which means I can watch the NHL network, Doctor Who, SyFy channel, or RuPaul’s Drag Race any time I want to without having to DVR it or waiting for someone to relinquish control of the remote. I can take up the entire bed and all the blankets … Continue reading Being Single
There’s a lot to be said for a support circle. I am super grateful for my support circle of friends…aka chosen family. They balance me, encourage me, let me vent, let me be, and are there for me. I am not sure how I would get through life without them. They are my strength when I feel weak. They are my shoulder to cry on … Continue reading Chosen Family
My name is Alice White and I am a murderer. No, I wasn’t named after the wine. I was named after my great-great grandmother and White is the family name that has served my family well because my family is filled with white magicians. We do the kind of good magic that brings good fortunate, health and so on. There … Continue reading Alice White