“How you spend this little dance with destiny, that’s up to you but when you find your band, you find your band…” ~ Phil, ROADIES I’ve been searching for the right words to express exactly how I am feeling right now and I can’t. There’s this lump in my throat that I will let the music down. And I’ve already let it down. I am sorry … Continue reading An Ode to Cameron Crowe
The hardest thing about this December 17th is that I cried daily leading up to it. I’m not talking about a few tears. I’m talking about cry until you get a god damn headache cry. Fuck the full moon. Fuck life. Fuck people. Fuck everyone. Fuck everything. As much as i try to be a positive person, I could not shake the giant dark cloud. … Continue reading Until Then, In the Darkness…
I love the word epiphany. I like the way it rolls off my tongue and the way it sounds. Usually having an epiphany is a good one, but what if the epiphany isn’t so good? Over the last two days, I have felt my head go from one emotion or thought to another. Nothing subtle,. It was just as if I stepped on a land … Continue reading I’m Not Okay (And That’s Okay)
SONG: “Closer to the Edge” ARTIST: 30 Seconds to Mars What does this song mean to me? Before my mom passed away, just another song my soul connected with. When she was in the hospital, the song I vowed to play every day until she got out. Now that she’s passed away? My way of knowing that she is with me. Her death was a … Continue reading #05: “Closer to the Edge”
This song will forever be associated with my mom. When I hear it, I know she’s with me. “Closer to the Edge” by 30 Seconds to Mars. The beginning of this video sums up what the song means to me. It was playing in the car when I arrived at the hospital and I played it on repeat until she left the hospital. Days of … Continue reading 30 Day Song Challenge Redux (Day 5): Song that Reminds You of Someone
This picture is how I feel about life in general right now.
FUCK EVERYTHING AND BECOME A PIRATE.
That was on the back of a menu at a fabulous bar/restaurant in Bondi in Australia and I for the life of me cannot remember the name of the bar/restaurant but I also took the other photo below there too because 1) the served Sailor Jerry Rum 2) who doesn’t like tequila when they’re getting their festive on and 3) it says Merry Fuckin Christmas.
The only way that message would have been topped was if it had said: Merry Fuckin Christmas Y’all. Continue reading Fuck Everything & Become a Pirate
One of my mentor’s in my career and a friend, Jack Daniel, once said to me: “It’s the quality of life that will matter, not the quantity or the career.” His message has stuck with me since then. I hear it quietly in my head over and over. In the words of Gareth Asher, “Gotta get going, gotta get on the road…I’m my packing bags … Continue reading The Voice That Speaks Inside
Risk :: noun :: ˈrisk :: possibility of loss or injury, peril :: someone or something that creates or suggests a hazard You know what the definition says to me? Scared. Scared to move forward. Scared to take a step back and try another path. Scared of your limits. Scared to push your boundaries. Scared to step beyond your comfort level. Scared to step outside of … Continue reading Take Risks, Have No Regrets
Crazy Little Thai Lady was my mom’s nickname. Who gave it to her, no idea. She wasn’t knife wielding crazy or any of that sort. She was more of a 110 degree heat, pushing a lawn mower around 4 acres of land, crazy. There was nothing she couldn’t do and you couldn’t tell her “no, it’s impossible.” I guess that’s where I get my stubborn, … Continue reading Letters to Lek: Happy Birthday Crazy Little Thai Lady
An iPod on shuffle can actually bring you answers to the questions you seek if you have an open mind and are willing to see or hear. February should have been titled. Ask the Universe a Question and the iPod has the answer. To watch/listen to the song/video, click the title. Flashlight by Chris Young I was a daddy’s girl growing up. I was not … Continue reading Songs of My Life: February 2013