January. 2021. A new year. A new dawning. You had a moment of soul crushing, a brutality that came through for one horrible day. A build up of hate and supremacy and it exploded in an ugly way on January 6, 2021. Domestic terrorists fuelled by lies and hatred stormed Capitol Hill and the world got to see just how ugly and mean Americans can … Continue reading Songs of My Life: January 2021
8 months into 2020. CAN YOU BELIEVE? There are times when I still feel stuck in March-April when the pandemic hit. There are times when I have no fucking clue what month it is. But here we are, 8 months into the year. Not exactly the year any of expected but sadly the year we probably all needed. Needed to reset. Needed to see the … Continue reading Songs of My Life: August 2020
They say it’s a man’s worldBut it’s a world full of boysRude boysKind boysDumb boysSmart boysStraight boysGay boysGenderless boysHater boysLover boysBoys will be boysToxic with masculinityImmune to the hatred they spread “Dancing with the Big Boys” is from the album TONIGHT. The first two lines are the only lines that survived my initial thought when writing this poem. Once I sat down to write, it took … Continue reading Dancing with the Big Boys
August opened and ended with new moons (August 1st and the 30th). For me, a new moon symbolises new beginnings, resetting, recovery and starting fresh. I suppose August has been just that for me. I tried new things, reiki and took The Space Between mindfulness course, I started a new training program (and am wrapping it up as well). I’ve had a lot of great moments … Continue reading Songs of My Life: August 2019
November saw me leveling up another year. I’m at level 43, but none the wiser. Various songs spoke to me and some just reminded me of the past. Listen on AppleMusic Listen on Spotify “The Breeze” by The Constellations This was the first song I heard in November. It kind of set the feel good mood of November. Lyrically reminded me of home, family and … Continue reading Songs of My Life: November 2018
September was a good month but also a hard month. I suddenly developed hives on Sept 2 and have been battling it since. I woke up several days with swollen parts of my face and I woke every day covered in hives, some days were a bad out break and some days were a not so bad break out. I felt defeated more than once … Continue reading Songs of My Life: September 2018
tears filled with sadness heart empty a hole where you once stood death, too early where were the angels when I needed them where was a god when I needed to believe gone the faith within gone the hope for healing gone the fight to live 5:15 your time of death 5:15 the time I stopped living Inspired by “5:15 the Angels Have Gone” from … Continue reading 5:15 the Angels Have Gone
the hearts filthy lesson of love and hate the hearts filthy lesson of obsession and depression the hearts filthy lesson of life and death the hearts filthy lesson of torment and freedom the hearts filthy lesson of safety and fear the hearts filthy lesson of victim and sainthood the hearts filthy lesson never teaching only reminding Inspired by “The Hearts Filthy Lesson” from the album … Continue reading The Hearts Filthy Lesson
a big hurt believing one could love another a big hurt knowing a certain sadness a big hurt licking wounds in the darkness a big hurt mending scars on the soul a big hurt letting go of love a big hurt small compared to death a big hurt not worth the end pain a big hurt a lesson learned Inspired by “A Big Hurt” from … Continue reading A Big Hurt
“I’d like to offer you some advice,” he said, putting the cup of tea down in front of me and lighting a cigarette. “And what’s that?” I asked, wrapping my hands around the cup of tea. I had expected it to warm my hands and soothe my soul, but it was cold and did anything but soothe. “Take care of yourself. First and foremost. You … Continue reading Never Get Old