There’s about 5 people I know who may pick up on this Doctor Who reference! Let’s be honest, how fucking boring is it to call this post a reflection of 2016! Thpppt!! 4 Things and a Lizard is way better. THING 1: I brought in 2016 while in Hunters Valley for Lost Paradise. I was alone in the middle of the valley and mountains with no … Continue reading 4 Things and A Lizard
The hardest thing about this December 17th is that I cried daily leading up to it. I’m not talking about a few tears. I’m talking about cry until you get a god damn headache cry. Fuck the full moon. Fuck life. Fuck people. Fuck everyone. Fuck everything. As much as i try to be a positive person, I could not shake the giant dark cloud. … Continue reading Until Then, In the Darkness…
I love the word epiphany. I like the way it rolls off my tongue and the way it sounds. Usually having an epiphany is a good one, but what if the epiphany isn’t so good? Over the last two days, I have felt my head go from one emotion or thought to another. Nothing subtle,. It was just as if I stepped on a land … Continue reading I’m Not Okay (And That’s Okay)
And the thoughts… They invade like locusts on a warm summer night Stopping me in my tracks Surrendering me to my knees Hopeless Confused Struggling for answers Advice from friends Guidance from strangers The answer within Not knowing where to look Just look Look inside But where My heart? My head? My soul? The answer within Nothing within Stillness Quiet Alone No answer within Within … Continue reading Within
I have to be honest, the adage, “The Struggle is Real” is one of my least favorite sayings.
“The coffeeshop was out of vanilla soy milk #TheStruggleIsReal.”
There’s always something we’re trying to reason with: family, friends, lovers, kids, pets, coworkers, etc. Those are all the outward things we try to reason with. What about the inward things. Thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc. What about that battle one faces every day with the image staring back at them in the mirror. How do you reason with yourself? Lately, I’ve been in a mood. … Continue reading Trying to Reason with the Hurricane Season
I can feel it in my bones. There’s a certain ache. It’s an ache of the sun slipping away into the darkness sooner and of Luna staying awake longer than she should. The ending of a season filled with blue skies and green grass and the beginning of a season filled with gray skies and snow-white embankments. It’s the oncoming storm. A storm that no … Continue reading The Oncoming Storm
Depression, it cannot be seen on or in a person. You can’t look at a person and label them as depressed. One might be able to see sadness but sadness and depression is not the same. I don’t talk about it to anyone. I never have. It’s mine and mine alone. It has been that way since I was a teen and it will be … Continue reading It’s Just a Moment this Time Will Pass
I’ve been feeling an incredible amount of sadness in my life. I get it around this time of year every year. This will mark the 2nd year, I have not been to Key West in the month of August. Key West is a place where I go to reset my soul. I’m just as obsessed with Key West as I am with Australia. In my ideal … Continue reading I Need to Reset My Soul
Headspace… ….sometimes, getting in my own head with a flashlight and exploring the nether regions of it is a dangerous place… I’m in a mood, a funk, a whatever you want to call it. Nothing specific happened to put me there. I just woke up one day and was blah. Sometimes, I just wake up and I’m there, standing on the edge of the darkness … Continue reading Putting Bass in My Walk