Happy Mother’s Day Mama! The rose bush you planted bloomed this week. One single yellow rose is there and I told Brenda that it was you watching over everything at the house. She said someone had to keep her in check. I know you’re keeping an eye on us from above. Everyone is checking in on me and making sure I’m okay today. It’s nice … Continue reading Happy Mother’s Day

Today your Stinker, Riley, turned eleven! Can you believe that? 11 years old!!! You’d be so proud of her. She also competed in her first cheerleading competition and came in 2nd place. It’s also her first birthday without you. Continue reading Happy Birthday Riley

I love you and miss you Mama. Happy early Mother’s Day. “IF YOU WERE HERE” by Poe Father: What is it Annie? Daughter: I miss you.If you were here I know that you would Truly be amazed At what’s become of what you made If you were here You would know how I treasured every day How every single word you spoke Echoes in me … Continue reading If You Were Here

One year ago today Mama, you and I were racing down 85 on our way to the hospital in anticipation of your second grand daughter’s birth. Today, she turns one and you’re not here and it’s so odd Mama that you’re not here. Taylor’s one and you’d be so proud of her and Brenda. She’s a beautiful little girl. But today I also got a … Continue reading Happy Birthday Taylor

I’m sitting here watching the Preds vs Blackhawk game and writing you a letter. Obviously right? Taylor’s walking now and speaking baby babble. You’d be so proud of her. Looking at her today, I was reminded a lot of you. How you would turn your head if you were thinking about something or how you would tilt your head trying to find the right words … Continue reading Today

I find myself missing you at the oddest moments. Like now, I’m sitting here in tears. Nothing particular triggered the tears, I just miss you. I still find it hard to believe that you’re gone. I just want to hear you say “I love you baby.” Continue reading I Miss You

As I was driving home to see Brenda, Bud, Riley, & Taylor which is your home, I realized that it doesn’t feel like home. You’re not there to greet me. I don’t have the urge to rush over there on a Saturday & Sunday to take you to the store or just to sit and talk with you. It’s strange driving over to see them … Continue reading Home

So, changing for you, well that turned into, me still being a lazy slob. I can hear your voice and see the look you’re giving me right now. I know, I know, I know. Just stop being lazy. I don’t know why I’m so hard on myself Mama. I guess I expect perfection & extraordinary and when I don’t give myself that, I let my … Continue reading What Workout?

Last night I missed you a lot Mama. I realized that nothing can ever replace what you were, still are, have and will always been to me. I haven’t been writing like I should but I don’t feel motivated to write a “love story.” I don’t believe in love right now. I know that’s a bit harsh to say, but that’s what I feel. Maybe … Continue reading Not Enough Today

So I caught up on the TV show Human Target. You would really like it Mama. It has action, fight scenes, car chases, and funny characters. You would like the leading actor too. And you’d like the fact he just shoots a gun vs standing there and thinking about it. As I watched it, I felt you sitting beside me enjoying it as well. Continue reading Human Target