Well it’s a Saturday night and I’m sitting in Palm Springs, California. It’s been one year and and one month and twenty days and fourteen hours and forty eight minutes since you have left. And it’sstill seems like yesterday I was laying in bed with you while you took your last breath. I keep hoping that I’ll walk in the front door of the house and you’ll come … Continue reading Time
Mama, Where ever you may be please take a moment and let Daddy and Brenda know you are near them. They need you more than ever. I miss you so much and I love you big as the sky. I know you are where you belong and I know you’re in my heart. I love you. ~Shelia In a few short hours it will have … Continue reading Celebrating Lek
Mama,You and Daddy would have celebrated 36 years together this week. 36 years!! I don’t know if I should call Daddy and say something or if I should ignore it all together and let him bring it up. I don’t want it to be a sad day for him. I want it to be a good day for him. I want him to remember everything … Continue reading Happy Anniversary
Over the weekend, I thought about my mom a lot. Nothing bad, but just thinking of how she did things, what she would say, and so on. When she passed away, I had DZL call my family’s answering machine and record the message. It’s the only voice recording I have of her. She left our family answering machine message in Thai so her family knew … Continue reading Mama’s Voice
HEY HONEY, YESTERDAY WASN’T A GOOD DAY FOR ME. EVERYTHING I DONE, TOUCHED, THOUGHT WAS ABOUT YOU. IT STARTED ABOUT 7PM. I WAS LISTENING TO MY IPOD WHEN LORIE MORGAN, PICTURE OF ME WITHOUT YOU STARTED AND I STARTED. I WAS CRYING SO HARD I HAD TO PULL OVER BECAUSE I COULDN’T SEE THE ROAD. BEAR KNEW SOMETHING WASN’T RIGHT. SHE WAS TRYING TO CLEAN … Continue reading Missing You
I believe Ville Valo of H.I.M. said it best, “Music is God, my best friend.” There are songs that inspire me, console me, move me, and make me feel loved. There are the songs that brighten my day and there are songs that take me to a certain time or memory. “Closer to the Edge” by 30 Seconds to Mars was an instant favorite for … Continue reading Closer to the Edge
Mama,You would so love the remake of Clash of the Titans. Just as much as you & I loved the original. It made me cry thinking of you. I could just hear you shouting at the tv to fight or look behind you. It made me miss you. I could have used your words, your wisdom a few weeks ago. I just needed you to … Continue reading Clash of the Titans
Mama,Why is it so hard on me that your dogs, your babies, might not be in my life anymore? I’m crying so hard right now that I can’t be breathe. I feel like I’m giving away the last part of you that I have. It hurts my heart. It hurts my soul. They deserve you here to love them. They deserve you here to take … Continue reading Your Babies
To many days of being aloneTo many days since you’ve been goneTo many months of asking whyTo many months of saying goodbyeToo many tears have come my wayToo many tears have come to stayI miss you Darling that’s why I sayI’ll always you love to my dying days By Richard Taylor June 2010 Continue reading Poem to Lek
You’re not here Mama, but I know you’re in the sky shining down on your one true love, Daddy. I know you’re telling him HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY! I LOVE YOU! Continue reading Happy Birthday Ricky